I am honestly so much more content sitting in my room alone at night smiling and crying to myself as I watch my favorite tv shows, than being out in the uncomfortable situation that involves me pretending to be having the good time of my life with boring people, who don’t know a thing about me, who don’t care about me, who do pointless things.
Does anyone else find it crazy that you can be so fucking depressed and no one around you notices? Not your parents, your siblings, your friends, your teachers, your classmates, no one. Like you can literally be on the verge of tears, drowning, and everyone is totally oblivious.
I’m at the point where I can’t even cry about things that hurt me. I just get a heart wrenching pain in my chest and lay there quietly, thinking about how fucked up I am.
if your teenage years are meant for experimenting with relationships i’m fucked